Twenty Sixteen Twenty Seventeen

It's been about a month since the arrival of a brand new year.

I still remember those days where I struggle to keep up with the change on the year we have to write on our assignments' date. I believe it's not just me, yes? HAHA

Thinking back, my life has been really eventful. Be it in terms of socially, schooling whatsoever. I must say there were many great things blessed upon me and I am forever grateful for it.

Truth is, there was many many unnecessary dramas too, which wasted a lot of time but also provided some life lessons. 

 I also realise that I am always involved in some kind of arts activity. I've always loved arts & craft since Primary School and also played an instrument. I joined GuZheng and Modern Dance co-curricular activity(CCA) in Secondary School and took up Art for O Levels. After moving on to Polytechnic, I joined a street dance club and got very involved in dancing. 

Did I mention, that my dream since a kid was to work in the fashion/design industry?

Yeap, that was my dream. 

It's funny how I landed in Engineering Diploma(in 2015) instead. I've indeed enjoyed shocking people with this news. Whether you think so or not, they said I didn't look like one. Well, I didn't plan to be an engineering student anyway. I only aimed for a pass or slightly higher for my studies as I really hated my course and I was falling deeply in love with dancing.  Don't be like me okay, I am a bad example LOL.

As time flies quickly, it was my Year 2 first semester. My timetable was the best I've seen and probably better than many people in my course. I had so much more free time that I decided to spend them on dancing. However, I still do my work and study so that I can at least get a decent grade. I didn't want to repeat another 3 years of this diploma. 

Basically my 1.5 years of studying there was plain mundane, till I have nothing to share with you guys. Only my dance life was exciting. I even filmed a short 'behind-the-scenes' video for my dance club, Foreign Bodies, production performance. You can click here to view it (;

But, before Foreign Bodies production, some time before Year 2 second semester started, my life had a change I never dream of. My parents took into consideration that I wasn't doing so well in my course then, and I've had strong interest in arts field for years. They gave green light on the decision of withdrawing from the school to pursue what I want instead ! YAYYYYY

I know many would say, 

"Are you sure?"

"You wasted, should have finished your diploma first."

"You're almost year 3."

"You can't earn well in arts"

BLABLABLA 

It's not that I'm not respecting your views, opinions and concerns. I've heard them a million times and my explanation are all somewhat the same. 

I would rather give my best in what I enjoy than wasting my time being half-hearted in something I am struggling on. Also, isn't it a waste of money to be throwing money for school fees for a diploma that I am unlikely to use in the future. Government subsidies for education is limited too you know.

& what is even greater than support from parents :')

However, I am only applying next year, 2018. I need a break, space to breathe and see things clearer.

Anyway, some time after I withdraw, I had an experience I will never forget.

Singapore Fashion Week (#SGFW) 

It was a complete random day, I was just scrolling around Instagram randomly when I came across Singapore Fashion Week Instagram account. That was when I saw that they were looking for volunteers to help out for the event. Of course I was interested, however I was hesitant. I took sometime time to think through, for I don't know what reason. After talking to my best-friend, I decided that I'll just submit my details and wait for their news.

I was so happy when I received the message that I'm given a chance to help out at the event. I got to meet awesome people who have the same passion, experience and witness things I don't get in my current mundane life. It was a really great experience.

At the end of the day, I want to let you know, nothing is impossible.
It may seem impossible, because that's what my dream looks like to me, something impossible to achieve. However, time after time I keep hearing this advice that I decided to keep in my mind.
"As long as you love what you do, whatever shit you go through, you'll still enjoy what you do."

                        Therefore, if you have a dream, a goal... Pursue it.
Fuck those comments about being practical, about doing things to have stable future, trying to stop you. If there's a will, there's a way. You don't have to quit school of course, but within your whole life, find opportunities to pursue your dreams. It's not about whether it's risky or dramatic, it's about fighting for what you truly love doing.
You only have one life, cherish the time you have.
Little did you know, while you are studying something you dread, you are doing things that is actually related what you truly love. Life is hinting you to realise your true self (;