Rant.

This is probably common but I never thought it'll happen to me.

This is going to be a rant blog post so if you're not interested in my personal life or wants to judge, go away. If you find it waste of time to read this post then don't read.

Many of the girls probably have experience this. I guess?
Remember when you were single and there's a guy best friend that is always there to listen to you and your rants. Cheer you up and all. When he gets in to relationship, you suddenly feel alone. But when he broke up he could only share with you. So eventually you two talk more often and then always rant to each other and cheer each other up. But unknowingly during this time, your feelings for that best friend turns to a like then love. But you just denies those feelings causes you take him as your little/older brother. During those times where he cheer you up, he uses sweet words and all. Promising you that whatever he's doing, even playing games, he'll always be there when your down or need a listening ear. Claiming he'll reply.
Soon after the girl has such strong affection for him that she asked about his crush. End up because they love each other so they got together. First few days were sweet. Slowly it got bitter. Its not even a month yet.
I believe some guys out there stop putting in effort once they got the girl. But you didn't do that to your ex. But you did that to me? Okay never mind, I'll be open minded and take as you're lazy to text okay. Some people are like that. Fine. But we don't even seem like a couple. We distant so much that's just so... ugh I don't know.

I don't know what seriously happen but yes, such thing happened to me that I can't even. Describe. Breaking up maybe painful but being kept is suspense is also killing. Its like someone stabbing you really slowly instead if instant death. Reading those past messages that seemed so sweet but end up so bitter. Even though we all know teenage relationship does not last long. If they do, that's very rare. But that doesn't mean when you just started you don't give effort. Since you knew you'll be like this from the start then why start? Our friendship was so perfect. To me it was.

I don't know whoever reading will understand my bullshit but I told you before. This is a rant post so you had a choice to leave this page. Gosh. I'm done for now. Hoping for the best.
If I assumed and made an ass out of myself, okay sorry.